safe place

a room
wood floors
a rocking chair
no windows
four children wary of one another

coming together
slowly so slowly
i can enter the room now
safe place

we've been in a circle
we've held hands
i've spoken
told them thank you

angry
wee one
sadness
hopeless

thank you young ones for hanging
on the best you knew how
i'm here because of you
thank you thank you thank you

a hand to each soft cheek
a soft loving smile
a sigh
a safe place
inside of me

a reminder for myself

i made it
i survived
im intact
not perfect
but intact

hate

hate hate hate hate hate hate hate
punch them all in the face hard hard hard hard
bloody nose big purple bruises bam bam bam

hate hate hate hate hate hate hate
smash their faces in take that and that and that
unrecognizable features wham wham wham

arms over head pulling down
hide hide hide cry cry cry
roll into a tight ball
no no no no no no no

screammmmmmmmmm
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screamm
scream