Fur Persons

We lost the last of our fur persons Thursday night.

--sniff--

i loved those animals

lady tiffany whatzit misty

they never wanted anything from me but a hello and a pet or a scratch

they were happy to see me because it i was me

no more fur persons

i have a big gaping hole that i'll need to fill

i still hear them and look for them

i hope the rainbow bridge is real:
http://www.petloss.com/poems/maingrp/rainbowb.htm

the bridge is the one thing that makes it bearable for my inner kid

...d'ya think they found each other?
...are they playing together?
...do they miss me?
...will they remember me?
...are they happy and in no pain?
...is jesus feeding them? lady likes milk bones!
...are they being petted by angels?
...did god tell everyone where the best scratch spot is for each one?

i took for granted the comfort they gave
i notice it now that they are gone
i could scream for just one more doggy sigh tail wag or kitty purr

godspeed my fur persons

Update

This is the wonderful time of the year for health care annual enrollments. Since I work for a healthcare company, I've been working a lot of hours and trying to keep my head above water.

I need to work on my expectations of others. People disappoint me ... a lot. I am pretty sure I'm part of the problem, but man, it's a bummer.

I want consistency.

I want to eat anything I want and stay healthy.

I want to win the lottery, but don't want anyone to know.

I want to learn how to ride a motorcycle.

I want to bake again.

I want to provide opportunities from young girls/women to attend Camp CADI and learn to heal before too much damage is done.

I want a president who doesn't have a forked tongue.

I want Barak Obama to truly be the change he professes to be.

I want the mint chocolate atomic cake i had when i turned 16.

I want to give my partner everything she's ever wanted.

I want my partner to storm the world with her creative and beautiful photographs.

I want to create...pictures, photos, paintings, art...just create and create and create.

I want to be the change.

I want to run again..just for me and not let anyone deter me.

I want a country where no one goes hungry.

I want all the people who commit genocide to simply disappear.

I want women to be respected and honored.

it feels this way

i feel like everyone wants something
but no one cares what i want
i'm asked what i want
but no one hears
i think

it feels that way

i feel like i give and give
and people take and take
and want more and then take offense
when i balk
but no one sees it as i do
i think

it feels this way

i feel like i reached my limit
i have nothing to give right now
i don't want to give right now
i need people to hear this
they aren't listening
i think

it feels this way