i think i merged with my inner survivor the other day. was talking in therapy and my therapist said something (i can't remember what now), and I felt my inner survivor leaving (she said something that hit my inner core of truth), but then felt her gently snap back (i know this sounds odd).
i felt her, waiting, testing, cautious, but willing to stick round. it was almost indescribable. i felt like she saw the therapist for the first time. felt like i was looking out with a complete self. it was ... unfamiliar, sensitive, interesting, honoring, surprising, and just downright odd.
walked outside and went to get in car and saw "me" in the car window. just sat there a looked at ME for some time. wow.
i feel like she's ready to move on and help me figure out how to continue to heal and live a whole life.
none of these words is close to what happened, but it's all i got at the moment.
i
feel
whole
new
calm
hm
